Day 1. – 18.11.2011 [Die Stunde der Wahrheit]
It is around 2 Pm, the moment which will change my life dramatically is getting closer and closer. My first-roommate and currently a god friend of mine, is giving me a few last advices about the process during the surgery. He is telling me, that I won’t get a full anesthesia and therefore not be able to sleep during the surgery.
Which was giving me a facial expression like: WTF?? Ó_ò ??
Even so, he said it in a quite amused manner and started to laugh about it, ironically.
And indeed, during the whole surgery I was wide awake and even listened on how Dr. Barinov has hammered my bones into several pieces.
My friend and first-roommate……mhhh
…well, c’mon let’s name him just Peter so far, at least just for this diary. Well, where was I….ouh yea.
Peter told me furthermore, that I will have the opportunity to take a MP3 Player or Smartphone with me, to listen some music. Which causes me again an expression like: …. Ó_ò.
And he started to laugh again about that. Oh dear lord…
We still exchanged a few experiences and talked about several other things, and nevertheless, during the whole conversation I wasn’t really able to take my sight even once, away from my watch.
The air is getting thicker, I was feeling that the moment is coming closer and closer.
And there it is, one of the nurses appears. She is telling me, to follow her and not to take too many things with me. I just took my Smartphone and said goodbye to….oh yes, Peter.
Arrived at the surgery room, I had to take most of my clothes off and a few last tests were made.
And here I’m, lying in the room and just waiting for the greatest change in my life.
After a few minutes, Dr. Barinov came finally into the room and greeted me. I was really relieved to see him which gave me a much safer feeling.
Without much hesitation, the Surgery began.
I got an injection in my spinal column which caused completely numbness to my legs. And still yet, I was, as I said before, totally awake. To be more exact, just everything under my hips was numb. I took advantage of the advices that Peter has given me, to overcome effectively the process through the surgery and took my earphones on.
I listened to: Serge Gainsbourg feat. Jane Birkin - Je t'aime moi non plus
Marvin Gaye - Sexualing Healing
Spandau Ballet – True
Papa roach – to be loved
Edward maya – Stereo Love
Sound System – born to be wasted
Outkast - The Way YoU mOVe
And yea, that was it so far.
During the time when Dr. Barinov hammered and drilled trough my bones, I tried to get at least some sleep.
But unfortunately this damn old nurse, who stood the whole time by my side, gave me every time when I tried so, a little slap.
She seemed to be having a great time by doing it, quite noticeable at her toothy grin. I got a bit annoyed after some time and turned my face in to a Franken Stein visage, which caused pure horrify to her.
She got pissed off, I got kinda stressed. I think I don’t like her anymore =(
Time passes, the surgery is drawing to an end, Dr. Barinov is telling me that they have successful installed the Frames on and that everything went well. I got my first sight on my Frames and was before even realizing it, immediately transported into my new room, where my Buddy and second-roommate awaited me there.
My second-roommate and now, truly a badass Friend of mine, was during the first horrible days always by my side. He helped me a lot out and always checked my condition and looked out for me, especially on the first Night, which is indeed, the most painful one. When you are reading this Bro…..Thank you man, I will never forget how much you have done for me, I’m truly grateful to have met you!
Time passes, I can feel how the anesthesia is losing his effect. The Pain is starting to grow more and more and even more…. to a point, where I just started to scream. My Bro is calling for the nurse to get some painkillers, but even so, the Pain was still outstanding high. I started to scream again, the whole night….through the morning, and couldn’t even get once, a bit of sleep. Just screamed and screamed…First Week - (18.11.2011 - 25.11.2011) [Die ersten Schritte]Day 2.
- It is already morning and somehow, with outstanding pain of course, I kinda managed to go through the first night. The assistant Doctor of Dr. Barinov came to visit me and told me to make my first steps. He said that I should go half of the way to the bandage-room. I tried to stand up, and viola….I surprisingly stood. I went my first steps….
Man, this is truly beyond god and evil, the pain you have is honestly on a really high Level. But still, my confidence is stronger than my fear of pain, and so I made one Step after another. With many mixed feelings, I managed half of the way to the bandage-room, and Mr. Doctor Assistant prepared a wheelchair for me. But I didn’t want to take a seat, I didn’t want to go just “half” of the way, I wanted to go the “full” way.
And so I did.First Week (Day 3. – 7.)
On the morning of the third day, I got a horrible kind of a headache, which was caused through the side effects of the anesthesia. Dr. Barinov and Mr. Doctor Assistant were telling me, that this is quite normal at this point and that some patients are suffering sometimes under such symptoms.
During the first week I was stupidly almost completely knocked off by this damn headache, and because of that reason, unfortunately not really able to make a lot of walking exercises.
Strangely enough, my headaches just appeared when I was standing or sitting, or rather say, when my upper body was upright. But it almost never appeared when I was lying. Looking back at it, that was really weird.
And so on, the first week somehow passed, with my Bro, still by my side.
Sorry for taking so long, but I had unfortunately a few hurdles to overcome. But nevertheless, this is my first entry.
Here a few pics of my frames: